I've neglected returning to this site for quite some time now.

I suppose I'll be putting more things up, all in due time.

A few tidbits of news:
I'm now married, I've moved, and I'm 22. The end.

Rules: Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following...They MUST be real places, names, things...NOTHING made up! If you can't think of anything, skip it. Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial.

And remember - you CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.

. Your Name:
Rachael

. Famous Artist/Band/Musician:
Ramones

. A song:


. 4 letter word:
Rape

. Color:
Red

. Gifts/present:
Red Fire Truck

. Vehicle:
Ram

. Animal:
Rat

. TV Show:
... can't think of one

. Location:
Rome

. Boy Name:
Ray

. Girl Name:
Ray

. Drink:
Rum

. Occupation:
Rapist

. Sport:
Running

. Flower:
Rose

. Celebrity:
Rachel Ray ( )

. Food:
Rum Cake

. Something found in a kitchen:
Rice

. Reason for Being Late:
Rabies

. Something You Shout:
Run!

Today marks what is pretty much the last important birthday other than 25 and 55( or 60 in some places) where I'll look forward to early bird specials and social security. lol.

I went to the winery with my mother and step father today. It was awesome. I like dry wines.

Happy birthday to me.

Ecstacy
You keep pulling me down
Way up high
Im drowning

I feel the wind
the breeze so gentle
in your hair
you shield your eyes to the strength

dream a thousand dreams
of you
me
drifting through an ocean of
energy
watching life swim by
fly by

I was thinking I should wait till the 21st to put this in, but fuck it.

I've been thinking, pondering the circumstances, and I realize where I have gone wrong. It does seem that a lack of trust in people causes much error in any relationship, however hard it is to trust that person. I try as hard as I can to trust, and eventually I will reach that point when I'm able to give myself up and just let go.
I love someone deeply, without love in return.

I am driving myself insane, but that's okay.